Final Words To Dontae

I guess it's time to lay you to rest, just put it to bed
I guess you wound up creating your own pool huh?
To which you continuously poured your sorrows into
With so many cries out, you would've had to shed many tears huh dude!
I guess you ended up taking a dive in it huh?
To which all the luggage you were carrying finally out weighed you dude
I guess we didn't realize how much you were suffering
Or how it over powered you dude
I guess the question you had on your mind was...where did we go?
The family you had just vanished on you dude
I guess it's pointless now, to wonder about the what ifs huh?
I guess if you had done that you wouldn't be missed!
I guess just caring for you now has made us all a bit crazy, to say the least
The sad thing is that, had we'd known what you'd eventually do...
I don't think the outcome for many of us would be any different dude!
I guess it's just like Wayne said, " whats misunderstood doesn't have to be explained."
This family has been beaten down cous'
I guess you noticed that huh?
It's sad for you to have come to this realization cous'
I guess you couldn't face it or maybe just couldn't handle it anymore
It's sad to not have a chance to see you dude
To talk to you!
To listen to you!
You were always missed by many and continuously loved by most cous'
I guess you got tired of waiting for our mimes to actually speak and say the words to you     huh? 
Yeah that happens sometimes
So I guess I don't really blame you dude
It's sad to not have had super powers to have heard you cous'
I wish there had been more time to tell you face to face what you needed to hear
We all love you Tae and we wish you were here!
I guess it's really time for us to lay you to rest now, just put you to bed...
What's done is done and all that needed to be said, has been said! 

They Live As They Come

They come while your waiting to dream and bound you in their arms in hopes of protecting you through the night

They live to slither around you as you lye dormant through the night

They come to relieve pain, stress and panic throughout your day

They live to toast your fears as they trickle down your face

They come to guard your spiritual being while you rest your physical body

They live to party while you suffer from mental, spiritual and physical pain

They come to extend a chalice to those whose cup has run over

They live to keep shackles on the ones who've stepped into the bad side

They come to dance on the sun to protect the heavenly gates

Their decrepit bodies live to dance, with excitement, at the death of our departed loved ones

They come while you morn to place a gentile kiss on your cheek and a quite whisper in your ear

They live for the serenade of your sorrowful screams

They come to place halos on the ones who've lived a life of fellowship

They live in anticipation in hopes of feeding off your inevitable demise

They will come to complete the destruction of you when they think you are beaten and broken down, the demons will always come for you!

They will always live to uplift and create a better you when you feel as though all is lost and you can't go on, the angels will always live for you!

She Is...

    She Is...

    Ambitious, artistic, annoying but only towards loved ones and apologetic, when necessary.
Bipolar on occasion! Brave, when she has to be, beautiful, bold, bossy and black.
    Emotional, when she cares for you, empathetic towards everyone, enthusiastic, energetic, when motivated and easy-going when she is relaxed.
Happy, honorable, honest, hot-headed, for good reason and can be a hard-ass, if for no other reason but to make you tough!
    Interesting, imaginative, intelligent and quit intuitive.
Kind-hearted and has a kindred spirit to her friends.
    Naughty, when it matters, neat and nurturing to her family.
Outstanding, always observant and sometimes old-school.
    Radiant, in the eyes of her husband, respectful of others, responsible, real, rugite and a bit reluctant at times.
Seductive, when the mood is right! Sweet, sympathetic to peoples problems, sincere, spiritual, soulful and very strong.
    Trustworthy, talented, thoughtful and talkative, more so when she gets intoxicated!
Youthful through it all because while she maybe; Annoying, Bipolar, Emotional, Hot-headed, Kind-hearted, Naughty, Observant, Real, Strong, Talkative and have and old soul...These are only words, they don't define her! She is just a person, with a big heart, in a young body, who knows exactly where she is going and acts her age while still never loosing sight of who? 

                                                          SHE IS...

                                                                           Brittany - Shontae - Brooks

     

See No...Hear No...Speak ? Part III

Oh yeah there had to be ah part three...I wouldn't dare forget about my young women out there! Why in the hell are so many of you in ah rush to grow up? Do y'all not see yawls older sisters', cousins, aunties, even MOTHERS? Come the fuck on! Now ah days y'all have been out here doing way to much at such ah young age and I so badly want to yell at yawls mothers but the fact is when you became old enough to talk smart, curse, drink, smoke and have SEX!! You became old enough to get your ass beat, get kicked out, and take responsibility for your faults...Which means, once you have ah child, YOU are no longer one your self! I'mma repeat that for those of you who would like to forget that I just said it....ONCE YOU HAVE AH CHILD, UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE NO LONGER ONE YOUR SELF!
I'm am so tired of shows such as, TEEN MOM and so called role models like, NICKI MINAJ UGH REALLY! Come on people, first off there's obviously something in the water any way, that's allowing these young girls to have such big breast and gluts, that now there are eleven year old's out her looking all of sixteen and these sixteen year old's are looking all of twenty-one, it ridiculous! What's worse is that most of you adults are okay with letting these KIDS get by on the shit y'all can control; Clothing (what they wear), music (what they listen to) and television (what they're watching). I actually have ah question for all of you...Do/did any of you have ah grandmother, na'na, big momma, hell even ah madea? What about ah mom! That statement is given to the young mothers out here.
I asked that question because I really wanna know if any of you were raised the way your children are being raised now? Okay, I'll ask that same question again but in ah different way, for those of you who didn't catch it!...When y'all were growing up, were y'all able to do most of the shit yawls children, sisters, cousins or nieces are doing now? My guess is that more than seventy percent of y'all were not! So my follow up question is, why not teach your children the right way of making mistakes if they must make them? Basically, what I am saying to y'all it this...Look at your selves clearly and not through ah fogged glass, did the way yawls parents raised y'all really fuck y'all up so bad? If the answer is NO, then why not take some of what yawls parents taught y'all and teach it to your children! Do they not deserve that? What kills me is that most of you are walking around trying to get people to feel sympathy for y'all because yawls children are horrible, possible TEEN MINAJ MOMS, using drugs and telling y'all to go fuck your selves because they know y'all won't do shit to them...So what do y'all do? Drink, snort, smoke or throw yawls hands up by just not paying attention to them! Now before I get so pissed that I begin to ramble on, let me just leave you readers with this...
Realize that we (WOMEN) are what keeps the cycle of the world repeating. It is our job to; raise, nurture, teach and reproduce the children of this world, so when we fall short on our job as WOMEN, we're not just falling short on that job but that of which makes us MOTHERS in the first place and when that happens, we fuck up the process at the starting gate, which basically means we're not giving our children any hope of making it to the finish line. So my biggest question in this entire post is, How can we expect our young men and women, especially the African American ones, to grow up and progress if we can't provide them with the most basic needs to guide them along the way? #MILEY CYRUS!

See No...Hear No...Speak ? Part II

I wonder how many of you are really enraged about what happen to Treyvon Martin! The shit is crazy and yeah / so the fuck what, so many of you have reposted pictures of him and made comments about the issue. I wonder how many of you have children? Actually how many of you have young boys? Do y'all not realize that those young boys will grow into young men that will eventually become grown ass men (if they make it that far!) Now how many of you don't have children but have young male cousins, nephews' or brothers? Take ah moment and just picture Treyvon as your child, your brother, you cousin or your nephew...
Picture him leaving to go chill with his girlfriend; maybe they got high, watched some t.v and then got it in (lol that's usually how young people kick it). Now he's ready to go home, so he probably kisses his girl good night, walks home and in the middle of that walk he has ah high moment and gets hungry...stops at ah store grabs something to quick to munch on and something to wash it down, then continues his walk. He's probable high, alone and ah little lost so he calls his girl just to see if she's up and realizes he's being followed panics, puts his snacks inside his hoodie and takes off running...From there if any of you followed the story, y'all know what happened!
My thing is this, who the fuck cares what he was doing before he got shot down! I would like to know why he got shot down in the first place! I mean I actually want the truth (Its never going to happen) but that's what I want because George Zimmerman or anyone else for that matter, could never tell me that he believed Treyvon was ah threat, Nor could anyone including Zimmerman say, "well he came after me and I had to defend myself"...That boy was not armed, unless skittles and watermelon flavored Arizona juice are weapons, I mean really! come the fuck on. Then for the police to have told Zimmerman during the 911 call, not to chase after him and  he did it anyway, He should have been locked up just for that off rip! Not to mention, during that call Zimmerman may have (which I believe after listening to it myself, that he did) said ah racial remark about Treyvon and on ah second call to 911 you hear someone (Treyvon) yelling out for help ah good four to five times then right after the last time you hear ah gun shot...You tell me NO BULLSHIT! what I'm suppose to think?
Think people...If Zimmerman has ah weapon on him, why in the hell would it be him calling out for help? Wouldn't it make more sense for the person yelling to have been Treyvon? So I ask you two things...One, why in the hell is Zimmerman not in jail for murder? Two, what would you do if this was your cousin, nephew, brother or SON? I capitalized the word son because although my son is only one years old, he is still going to grow up and become ah man someday and what if Treyvon was my Alijah?
My point is this, NO I don't intend for every African American in the world to stop their lives because one little boy lost his life. But DO SOMETHING MORE THAN AH POST OF AH PICTURE, THE TYPE OF AH STATEMENT, GIVING AN APOLOGY OR TURNING THE OTHER CHEEK ( WHICH IS BASICALLY AH FUCK YOU BTW!!) Because the reality of the situation is, although your world didn't stop, Treyvons' did...His family's did and most importantly his MOTHER'S DID! An African American Women who lost her son due to ah racial ( I don't care who wants to believe that it wasn't racial because it was) problem that still exists in the world today and we as African Americans especially us who have children have to become more aware as well as knowledgeable of the issues around us in order to educate our African American children especially the MEN! Because we are loosing more and more of them every day. In fact I live on the north side of town, right across the street from an elementary school and ah young man (SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD!) got shot and killed right in the front of my house...I have three babies who were outside that day but through the grace of God and the fact that my husband brought them into the house to play while he exercised just five minutes before the shooting began! What if he didn't come in to exercise that day? What if he took them him just one second to late? Just what if? There wouldn't have been ah damn thing I would have been able to do if either my children or my husband would have gotten hit by just one of those bullets, all because If we're not out here killing each other (BLACK ON BLACK) we're getting killed (WHITE ON BLACK) and the most fucked up part is that, most of you dummies think the shit's okay! WAKE THE FUCK UP PEOPLE, when will y'all realize that it's been about that time to SEE, HEAR & SPEAK and no one has gotten up yet!
I'm so over it at this point and I'm not quite sure of how or where to start but someone has to do something to raise awareness and get more people to understand that this has to stop in order for there to ever be PROGRESS.

See No...Hear No...Speak ? Part I

   So many things come to mind when I think of the phrase "Hear no evil, See no evil, Speak no evil"...
Lately that's all most people in the world are doing right now, I only say that because I wanna know what has to happen before any one person will actually speak out or do something...anything about the issues instead of focusing on useless trinkets that non of us can take with us when the Lord calls us home and for those who don't believe in ah higher power...what I'm saying is that at some point we all will die and on that day, how many of you actually believe that those pair of shoes, that money, that flat screen television, the jewelry or anything else of non-importance in this life can be taken to the next?
So my follow up question is, why in the hell are we out here stealing, killing, lying and cheating for this shit instead of helping out one another? I bet none of you readers have an answer right! Honestly even though in this moment, yes I'm running my mouth asking questions and trying to tell everyone how I believe things are, I can't even answer ah damn thing myself but unlike some of you - I sit at home and get angered about the shit going on in the world we live in because NO ONE is doing ah damn thing to speak out against anything and it's sad.
Actually, sad is the wrong word because things stop being sad in my eyes when someone I know told me about something she seen happen to some kid. Now this was ah while back but even still I think it's ah damn shame about what happen so...I'm gone tell y'all what I know, just to see what some of you have to say about it. She began to vent about the kids today or shall I say, she began to share the so-called "drama" kids have going on today like this...

"Yeah I have to get my shit together and move from around here cause these kids are so damn bad it's ridiculous, I had just left your house and was walking down Hudson when I seen these two groups of kids that look like they had just got outta school. Both groups was yelling at each other, I guess one of the little girls was trying to fight another little girl from the other group...so any way, the one girl starting screaming BITCH this and BITCH that to the other girl while chasing her down the street, well when she finally got close enough to her they're in the middle of the street fighting and the one girl doing all the yelling is giving it to the other girl so bad that they're actually slowing down traffic and I look over and I see the girl stomping the other girl in the head like she was trying to kill her or something and I JUST KEPT ON WALKING cause I wasn't trying to get into that mess, I guess now ah days people just wanna kill each other and if that's what they wanna do, that's fine I just wanna get way from around it!" 

My response was,"Well what in the hell did the other people do? the people driving by that obviously drove slow in order to watch the fight, what did they do? did any body call the police or try to stop the fight at all? I'mma go ahead and let y'all answer to those questions, because many of you probably already know that NO ONE did ah damn thing about anything. But I guess that's how society is today right! We're always seeing things, hearing things or saying things and NEVER doing one thing to help. That's not sad, it pitiful because how many of us able body people can get on Facebook, Twitter, Myspace, Instagram, or Youtube and post stupid, pointless, useless shit about every and anything possible but how many of those same able body people are posting shit of importance? I mean how many people are actually paying attention to any of the awful things going on in the world now?
I wonder did any of you know about the African American lady who died during her 911 call? She was on the phone with an operator letting them know everything that was happening to her, as it was happening! Yeah, that's what I said...She was screaming for the guy not to break into her home and NOTHING...She was screaming for him not to kill her and NOTHING...She said his real (government) name as well as his nick (street) name and NOTHING...The guy was even heard saying, "Bitch I'm gon kill you - I'm gon kill you and NOTHING! Do you know what the outcome was? That lady stayed on the phone for eleven minutes and died before anybody got to her. She was between twenty-five or twenty-six years old with ah little girl about one years old to look after, who thankfully wasn't there at the time but nonetheless, she still had her whole life to look forward to as well as watching her daughter grow up and the police who knew it was an emergency, took there sweet precious time, stopping for doughnuts along the way, to get to her and when they finally did they didn't check the house because of ah small ass ankle bitting dog scaring them while trying to check the back door. Her mom and older sister were the ones who found her dead in her own bath tub! WTF people, now we can't even call 911 which brings me to this...

Full of Shititis

Ah while back I wrote this; "First I was sick of being sick, then I was tired being tired, now I'm sick and tired with a headache on top! shaking my head when will someone make ah cure for FULL OF SHITITIS? someone please hit me up when they do, I'm good for it!" on my Facebook page well people I found it, the book entitled "The Cure" written by one of my favorite authors today, Brittany Anthony. So I began to read this book on the cure for full of shititis and it read...

" don't continue to feed the people with the disease bullshit, it will only indulge their craving        thus allow them to remain hindered in their illness and you will forever be entitled to enable the person with such disease. Instead feed them full of knowledge, this will leave them not only speechless but also absent minded to the fact that they are sick. Absent minded because they will be so focused on the fact that you've just proven them to be tediously dull to the point that they're now grasping at ah chance to be different, forgetting that they have been full of shit their entire life." 

   Now, to those of you dealing with this type of person in your lives right now, don't be mad at them for being this way...it's ah disease! be mad at you for not taking the time to educate yourself on such ah powerful yet easy to cure disease in the first place! I believe that we have ah choice about everyone who enter's into our lives and that choice is weather or not they stay in it long enough to obtain ah good relationship with us or not. But it is the people suffering from shititis that makes our choice harder than it needs to be, I feel like some of the people who enter into my life should come with an expiration date just like food, and on that expired date I can take them out of my life as you would ah stale bag of chips because really, what do you need with ah stale bag of chips in your life? At least with day old bread you can make it into great things such as; french toast or croutons for ah nice salad or something, but what can you do with old chips? Nothing! Then you have days in your life were you would enjoy the company of others for ah long period or time, much like can goods, which still have some form of an expiration date...and when that person is no longer enjoyable, you can get rid of them like you would that old can good. The point is, you should know that you always have ah choice to have full of shititis people in or out of your life and if your not aware of that...then hey, guess what? You've just learned something new today!