See No...Hear No...Speak ? Part III

Oh yeah there had to be ah part three...I wouldn't dare forget about my young women out there! Why in the hell are so many of you in ah rush to grow up? Do y'all not see yawls older sisters', cousins, aunties, even MOTHERS? Come the fuck on! Now ah days y'all have been out here doing way to much at such ah young age and I so badly want to yell at yawls mothers but the fact is when you became old enough to talk smart, curse, drink, smoke and have SEX!! You became old enough to get your ass beat, get kicked out, and take responsibility for your faults...Which means, once you have ah child, YOU are no longer one your self! I'mma repeat that for those of you who would like to forget that I just said it....ONCE YOU HAVE AH CHILD, UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE NO LONGER ONE YOUR SELF!
I'm am so tired of shows such as, TEEN MOM and so called role models like, NICKI MINAJ UGH REALLY! Come on people, first off there's obviously something in the water any way, that's allowing these young girls to have such big breast and gluts, that now there are eleven year old's out her looking all of sixteen and these sixteen year old's are looking all of twenty-one, it ridiculous! What's worse is that most of you adults are okay with letting these KIDS get by on the shit y'all can control; Clothing (what they wear), music (what they listen to) and television (what they're watching). I actually have ah question for all of you...Do/did any of you have ah grandmother, na'na, big momma, hell even ah madea? What about ah mom! That statement is given to the young mothers out here.
I asked that question because I really wanna know if any of you were raised the way your children are being raised now? Okay, I'll ask that same question again but in ah different way, for those of you who didn't catch it!...When y'all were growing up, were y'all able to do most of the shit yawls children, sisters, cousins or nieces are doing now? My guess is that more than seventy percent of y'all were not! So my follow up question is, why not teach your children the right way of making mistakes if they must make them? Basically, what I am saying to y'all it this...Look at your selves clearly and not through ah fogged glass, did the way yawls parents raised y'all really fuck y'all up so bad? If the answer is NO, then why not take some of what yawls parents taught y'all and teach it to your children! Do they not deserve that? What kills me is that most of you are walking around trying to get people to feel sympathy for y'all because yawls children are horrible, possible TEEN MINAJ MOMS, using drugs and telling y'all to go fuck your selves because they know y'all won't do shit to them...So what do y'all do? Drink, snort, smoke or throw yawls hands up by just not paying attention to them! Now before I get so pissed that I begin to ramble on, let me just leave you readers with this...
Realize that we (WOMEN) are what keeps the cycle of the world repeating. It is our job to; raise, nurture, teach and reproduce the children of this world, so when we fall short on our job as WOMEN, we're not just falling short on that job but that of which makes us MOTHERS in the first place and when that happens, we fuck up the process at the starting gate, which basically means we're not giving our children any hope of making it to the finish line. So my biggest question in this entire post is, How can we expect our young men and women, especially the African American ones, to grow up and progress if we can't provide them with the most basic needs to guide them along the way? #MILEY CYRUS!

See No...Hear No...Speak ? Part II

I wonder how many of you are really enraged about what happen to Treyvon Martin! The shit is crazy and yeah / so the fuck what, so many of you have reposted pictures of him and made comments about the issue. I wonder how many of you have children? Actually how many of you have young boys? Do y'all not realize that those young boys will grow into young men that will eventually become grown ass men (if they make it that far!) Now how many of you don't have children but have young male cousins, nephews' or brothers? Take ah moment and just picture Treyvon as your child, your brother, you cousin or your nephew...
Picture him leaving to go chill with his girlfriend; maybe they got high, watched some t.v and then got it in (lol that's usually how young people kick it). Now he's ready to go home, so he probably kisses his girl good night, walks home and in the middle of that walk he has ah high moment and gets hungry...stops at ah store grabs something to quick to munch on and something to wash it down, then continues his walk. He's probable high, alone and ah little lost so he calls his girl just to see if she's up and realizes he's being followed panics, puts his snacks inside his hoodie and takes off running...From there if any of you followed the story, y'all know what happened!
My thing is this, who the fuck cares what he was doing before he got shot down! I would like to know why he got shot down in the first place! I mean I actually want the truth (Its never going to happen) but that's what I want because George Zimmerman or anyone else for that matter, could never tell me that he believed Treyvon was ah threat, Nor could anyone including Zimmerman say, "well he came after me and I had to defend myself"...That boy was not armed, unless skittles and watermelon flavored Arizona juice are weapons, I mean really! come the fuck on. Then for the police to have told Zimmerman during the 911 call, not to chase after him and  he did it anyway, He should have been locked up just for that off rip! Not to mention, during that call Zimmerman may have (which I believe after listening to it myself, that he did) said ah racial remark about Treyvon and on ah second call to 911 you hear someone (Treyvon) yelling out for help ah good four to five times then right after the last time you hear ah gun shot...You tell me NO BULLSHIT! what I'm suppose to think?
Think people...If Zimmerman has ah weapon on him, why in the hell would it be him calling out for help? Wouldn't it make more sense for the person yelling to have been Treyvon? So I ask you two things...One, why in the hell is Zimmerman not in jail for murder? Two, what would you do if this was your cousin, nephew, brother or SON? I capitalized the word son because although my son is only one years old, he is still going to grow up and become ah man someday and what if Treyvon was my Alijah?
My point is this, NO I don't intend for every African American in the world to stop their lives because one little boy lost his life. But DO SOMETHING MORE THAN AH POST OF AH PICTURE, THE TYPE OF AH STATEMENT, GIVING AN APOLOGY OR TURNING THE OTHER CHEEK ( WHICH IS BASICALLY AH FUCK YOU BTW!!) Because the reality of the situation is, although your world didn't stop, Treyvons' did...His family's did and most importantly his MOTHER'S DID! An African American Women who lost her son due to ah racial ( I don't care who wants to believe that it wasn't racial because it was) problem that still exists in the world today and we as African Americans especially us who have children have to become more aware as well as knowledgeable of the issues around us in order to educate our African American children especially the MEN! Because we are loosing more and more of them every day. In fact I live on the north side of town, right across the street from an elementary school and ah young man (SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD!) got shot and killed right in the front of my house...I have three babies who were outside that day but through the grace of God and the fact that my husband brought them into the house to play while he exercised just five minutes before the shooting began! What if he didn't come in to exercise that day? What if he took them him just one second to late? Just what if? There wouldn't have been ah damn thing I would have been able to do if either my children or my husband would have gotten hit by just one of those bullets, all because If we're not out here killing each other (BLACK ON BLACK) we're getting killed (WHITE ON BLACK) and the most fucked up part is that, most of you dummies think the shit's okay! WAKE THE FUCK UP PEOPLE, when will y'all realize that it's been about that time to SEE, HEAR & SPEAK and no one has gotten up yet!
I'm so over it at this point and I'm not quite sure of how or where to start but someone has to do something to raise awareness and get more people to understand that this has to stop in order for there to ever be PROGRESS.

See No...Hear No...Speak ? Part I

   So many things come to mind when I think of the phrase "Hear no evil, See no evil, Speak no evil"...
Lately that's all most people in the world are doing right now, I only say that because I wanna know what has to happen before any one person will actually speak out or do something...anything about the issues instead of focusing on useless trinkets that non of us can take with us when the Lord calls us home and for those who don't believe in ah higher power...what I'm saying is that at some point we all will die and on that day, how many of you actually believe that those pair of shoes, that money, that flat screen television, the jewelry or anything else of non-importance in this life can be taken to the next?
So my follow up question is, why in the hell are we out here stealing, killing, lying and cheating for this shit instead of helping out one another? I bet none of you readers have an answer right! Honestly even though in this moment, yes I'm running my mouth asking questions and trying to tell everyone how I believe things are, I can't even answer ah damn thing myself but unlike some of you - I sit at home and get angered about the shit going on in the world we live in because NO ONE is doing ah damn thing to speak out against anything and it's sad.
Actually, sad is the wrong word because things stop being sad in my eyes when someone I know told me about something she seen happen to some kid. Now this was ah while back but even still I think it's ah damn shame about what happen so...I'm gone tell y'all what I know, just to see what some of you have to say about it. She began to vent about the kids today or shall I say, she began to share the so-called "drama" kids have going on today like this...

"Yeah I have to get my shit together and move from around here cause these kids are so damn bad it's ridiculous, I had just left your house and was walking down Hudson when I seen these two groups of kids that look like they had just got outta school. Both groups was yelling at each other, I guess one of the little girls was trying to fight another little girl from the other group...so any way, the one girl starting screaming BITCH this and BITCH that to the other girl while chasing her down the street, well when she finally got close enough to her they're in the middle of the street fighting and the one girl doing all the yelling is giving it to the other girl so bad that they're actually slowing down traffic and I look over and I see the girl stomping the other girl in the head like she was trying to kill her or something and I JUST KEPT ON WALKING cause I wasn't trying to get into that mess, I guess now ah days people just wanna kill each other and if that's what they wanna do, that's fine I just wanna get way from around it!" 

My response was,"Well what in the hell did the other people do? the people driving by that obviously drove slow in order to watch the fight, what did they do? did any body call the police or try to stop the fight at all? I'mma go ahead and let y'all answer to those questions, because many of you probably already know that NO ONE did ah damn thing about anything. But I guess that's how society is today right! We're always seeing things, hearing things or saying things and NEVER doing one thing to help. That's not sad, it pitiful because how many of us able body people can get on Facebook, Twitter, Myspace, Instagram, or Youtube and post stupid, pointless, useless shit about every and anything possible but how many of those same able body people are posting shit of importance? I mean how many people are actually paying attention to any of the awful things going on in the world now?
I wonder did any of you know about the African American lady who died during her 911 call? She was on the phone with an operator letting them know everything that was happening to her, as it was happening! Yeah, that's what I said...She was screaming for the guy not to break into her home and NOTHING...She was screaming for him not to kill her and NOTHING...She said his real (government) name as well as his nick (street) name and NOTHING...The guy was even heard saying, "Bitch I'm gon kill you - I'm gon kill you and NOTHING! Do you know what the outcome was? That lady stayed on the phone for eleven minutes and died before anybody got to her. She was between twenty-five or twenty-six years old with ah little girl about one years old to look after, who thankfully wasn't there at the time but nonetheless, she still had her whole life to look forward to as well as watching her daughter grow up and the police who knew it was an emergency, took there sweet precious time, stopping for doughnuts along the way, to get to her and when they finally did they didn't check the house because of ah small ass ankle bitting dog scaring them while trying to check the back door. Her mom and older sister were the ones who found her dead in her own bath tub! WTF people, now we can't even call 911 which brings me to this...

Full of Shititis

Ah while back I wrote this; "First I was sick of being sick, then I was tired being tired, now I'm sick and tired with a headache on top! shaking my head when will someone make ah cure for FULL OF SHITITIS? someone please hit me up when they do, I'm good for it!" on my Facebook page well people I found it, the book entitled "The Cure" written by one of my favorite authors today, Brittany Anthony. So I began to read this book on the cure for full of shititis and it read...

" don't continue to feed the people with the disease bullshit, it will only indulge their craving        thus allow them to remain hindered in their illness and you will forever be entitled to enable the person with such disease. Instead feed them full of knowledge, this will leave them not only speechless but also absent minded to the fact that they are sick. Absent minded because they will be so focused on the fact that you've just proven them to be tediously dull to the point that they're now grasping at ah chance to be different, forgetting that they have been full of shit their entire life." 

   Now, to those of you dealing with this type of person in your lives right now, don't be mad at them for being this way...it's ah disease! be mad at you for not taking the time to educate yourself on such ah powerful yet easy to cure disease in the first place! I believe that we have ah choice about everyone who enter's into our lives and that choice is weather or not they stay in it long enough to obtain ah good relationship with us or not. But it is the people suffering from shititis that makes our choice harder than it needs to be, I feel like some of the people who enter into my life should come with an expiration date just like food, and on that expired date I can take them out of my life as you would ah stale bag of chips because really, what do you need with ah stale bag of chips in your life? At least with day old bread you can make it into great things such as; french toast or croutons for ah nice salad or something, but what can you do with old chips? Nothing! Then you have days in your life were you would enjoy the company of others for ah long period or time, much like can goods, which still have some form of an expiration date...and when that person is no longer enjoyable, you can get rid of them like you would that old can good. The point is, you should know that you always have ah choice to have full of shititis people in or out of your life and if your not aware of that...then hey, guess what? You've just learned something new today!

CHRIHANNA

   Chris Brown & Rihanna... Yes guys, I'm bringing it up! Let me first start off by saying, "I do not have ah problem nor do I hate either Chris or Rihanna, I do how ever feel entitled to my own opinion on the matter and I've decided to voice that opinion today - That is why you read my blog anyway right? Now, I have been ah Chris Brown fan since the very first time I heard; Ya Man Ain't me, Young Love and Winner, just to name ah few. So I will remain that way, that's what true fans do... I have also been ah slight Rihanna fan for songs like; Pon da Replay and SOS, so please don't think of me as one of those people who are totally for or against either of the two...
   Now that, that's out of the way, I wanna be honest with you about them being together. In typical fan mode I was against Chris Brown being with her in the first place solely because, like any other fan of his back in high school when he first came out, In my mind I was gone meet him and we were going to date...and to those of you reading this right now, DON'T JUDGE ME! I mean I was even mad about him dying in the first movie he was ever put in, it went that hard for me!
   Any who getting back to the subject, the further the relationship went the more it just started to sound suspect - I mean we never really saw there relationship up close and the pictures of them being spotted together didn't suggest anything wrong but the rumors as well as the music did. There were even rumors about Rihanna and Jay-Z having some type of relationship/affair with one another and the music she made, made me think she was, in ah word, "Crazy." Then You'd see/hear about Chris Brown and he just had that innocent good boy quality about him and his music just verified the thoughts, I mean the worst thing about his music was the fact that as he grew he did what most men do, which was sing songs about getting it in! And really what's the harm in that?...In my opinion the harm came when their lives began to change in the public eye, basically as they became more famous, they seemed to become more blinded at the fact that not just there careers should have grown, but they should have grown as well, and why not? I mean when someone at age eighteen is making music such as "Take you down," we could only hope that the person is on their way to maturity and the same could be said for Rihanna as well, I mean anyone putting music out such as "Unfaithful," and " Disturbia," should not only find their way to maturity but to ah mental clinic as well, just saying. Then the shock happen, The shock that turned heads for both their fans. Chris Brown has just physically assaulted Rihanna, WTF! I mean are you serious? I think everyone at that time had questions about what really happen and definitely wanted to know more about the assault. Well I did and now I do so I'm going to share what I know as well as my opinions' because I can't keep my mouth closed when these crazies have just gotten back together. 
 Sources say, "It's despicable. They're blaming the victim. She's not the one prone to that kind of behavior...He's the one who's steppin' out." My question is, she not prone to what kind of behavior? the kind where she's talking about killing someone or herself, "Man Down, Unfaithful, G4L...The kind where she's blacking-out and going crazy,"Disturvia"...Better yet the kind that gets retraining orders out on the person who beat her ass and then goes to basketball games with them, And then to say, "she's not prone," so does that imply that he is? If so, whatever could have happen before this incident...Maybe it was the fact that he was making music about incidents in past relationships where he's cheated, "Damage"...Maybe it was the fact that he was trying to get over/trying to forget about someone he loved and that he hurt physically and mentally, "Deuces"...Better yet, I got it, maybe it was the fact that he had a chance to think about somethings and wanted to try and mend their relationship, "Crawl," Okay your right he's definitely prone to that kind of behavior! And who's to say that she didn't do any steppin' out of her own throughout the relationship? Me or you "sources." When it comes down to the fact of people blaming Rihanna, I can't speak for everyone but I can speak for me and I like to think of all sides of every story and I just don't believe everyone did that in their case - I mean Chris Brown is definitely wrong for putting his hands on her at all, but is she not to be accountable for her faults in the incident as well? If not, it's because of that, that some people may feel as though she's not so much of a victim. In Rihanna's own words she said, "The more in love we became, the more dangerous we became for each other, equally dangerous, because it was a bit of an obsession." I think anyone who makes ah statement such as that one, has to have ah few skeletons in their closet in matters of what happen in their relationship...

Rihanna even stated, "I don't hate him at all, I actually love and care about him. I want him to do well, have a great career, have a great life and grow up. And just take this as something you had to go through to grow up and learn." In that moment she was no longer speaking with the person interviewing her, she was speaking directly to Chris and I say that because who really says something like, what I underlined, and means it as ah life lesson?
   Now on to the actual assault, as you finish reading, keep this in mind...Rihanna stated that she had broken up with him before the incident but says this after, "Love doesn't go away right away. He didn't accept that very well. Obviously he didn't want us to be apart. But I had to make a decision for me." The fight started when Chris Brown received a text message from another women while "they" were driving, I put quotations over the word they because I had ah question after reading that...My question is, How, if she had not checked his phone either before or after he did, did she know that the text message came from another women? Did she ask? In my personal opinion, I'm gonna say she checked that phone, and in natural/typical girl friend mode went HAM over what she saw/read...Rihanna then states, "I couldn't take that he kept lying to me, and he couldn't take that I wouldn't drop it...It escalated into "him" being violent towards me. And it was ugly."

Cops responding to a 911 call found her with a split lid and contusions on either side of her forehead...
Actual Police Report: "The victim said she became enraged (after seeing the text message)  and slammed both of her fists against the dashboard on the passenger side of the car they were in. The defendant then pulled the vehicle over and reached over her with his right hand. He opened the car door and tried to force (shove) the victim out." 
"When he could not force her to exit (due to victim wearing a seat belt), he took his right hand and shoved her head against the passenger window of the car. The victim then faced the defendant and he punched her in the left eye with his right hand. He then continued driving. As he drove, he continued to punch the victim in the face with his right hand while steering the vehicle with his left hand. This was the first assault after which Rihanna told cops, "I looked in the mirror and saw my eye beginning to swell, she also stated that Chris said, "I'm going to beat the shit out of you when we get home! you wait and see! I tried to call my personal assistant but she didn't pick up (why would she call her personal assistant instead of the police after the first assault raising an eyebrow for me at least) so I pretended to talk to her saying I'm on my way home make sure the cops are there when I get there. Rihanna tells cops, "I pulled the act because I didn't want to get beat anymore," Which raises another eyebrow for me because If you were going to "pull an act" to keep from getting beat, why not pretend to/ actually call the cops? 
"The victim stated that after the fake phone conversation the defendant stated you just did the stupidest thing ever! Now I'm really going to kill you! The defendant then began a second assault during which time the victim interlocked her fingers behind her head and brought her elbows forward to protect her face. She bent at the waist placing her elbows and her face near her lap in order to protect herself from the barrage of punches. The defendant continued to punch the victim on her left arm, which caused her to suffer a contusion on her left tricep. When the defendant stopped hitting her the victim again picked up her cell phone and tried to send a text message to another assistant, the defendant snatched the cell phone out of her hand and threw it out the window of the car onto the street. He then stopped the vehicle (why did he stop the car if he was the one still in control?), the victim opened the passenger door and tried to exit in order to get her cell phone back (why would she try to exit just to get her phone, why not exit to get away from the man abusing her) before she could get out the defendant sped off, causing the door to close.
As the defendant was driving the victim saw his cell phone sitting in his lap, she took the cell phone with her left hand and tried to make a call. Before she could, the defendant placed the victims head in headlock while he continued to drive. He pulled the victim close and bit her on her left ear (didn't know Chris Brown was Mike Tyson but alright), the victim told police she could feel the victim (did Ri-Ri just have ah slip in the story!) swerving from left to right as the defendant was speeding away. The defendant stopped the vehicle in front of 333 North June St. (a local residence) and the victim was able to remove the keys, she sat on the keys. The defendant did not know what the victim did with the keys (question, if he knew when she took the phone off his lap, in what direction was his head for him to not see/know where she put the keys?) and started punching her again in the face and arms. He placed her in a headlock, positioning the front of her throat between his bicep and forearm, he then started applying pressure to her carotid artery, which made her unable to breathe she told police she started to loose consciousness she reached up with her left hand and started gouging at the defendant's face and eyes (how she was able to do that with her basically almost passing out I'll never know) in order to free herself, the defendant bit the victims left ring and middle fingers and then released her. The victim told police she then took off her shoe and tried to break the passenger window. The defendant continued to punch her and she turned around and placed her back against the passenger door, she brought her knees to her chest and placed her feet against the defendant's body to push away from him ( Now if your reading the report instead of scheming through it, you know that Rihanna told police that she took the keys and sat on them, so wouldn't Chris Brown have been able to retrieve the keys once she turned around to put her feet on him in order to push away?) The defendant punched the victim on her legs and feet causing several contusions, the defendant then ceased his assault and the victim opened the passenger door and started screaming for help. The defendant exited from his side of the car and walked around to the passenger side and force the door shut. The victim again opened the door and continued screaming. The defendant looked for the keys outside the vehicle when he could not find them he removed several compact discs that were inside the car and walked away.
   When Rihanna was later interviewed she said, "All I kept thinking was, when is it going to stop? When is it going to stop? He had no soul in his eyes just blank. He was clearly blacked-out. There was no person when I looked at him." Ah few things I have to say about that statement is, if that's what you honestly felt and saw from the man you loved so much...I mean if he was unrecognizable to that extent, why not get out of the vehicle before it got that bad? I mean it was you Rihanna, that stated to the police that before it got physical he pulled over and tried to force you out the car, yeah his approach was physical but again if he wasn't recognizable at that moment you should have gotten out of the car regardless. Even though I do blame your actions I in no way condone what Chris Brown has done either, what I am saying is that I believe that everyone should at some point own their own faults in their life and I just don't think you Rihanna, did that in that situation - Say what you will readers but through the research I did today and finding out more to the story (without Chris Brown's side of course) I do think there were definitely other events that lead to him blacking-out the way that he did that night. I mean lets retract for ah minute...This entire incident started over ah text message that you shouldn't have even seen in the first place, so your first fault in my opinion was being nosy, I mean there's ah time and ah place for everything and that is true where Chris Brown is concerned as well because he has the power to pick and choose his battles and side note - relationship 101 Chris fighting women is never okay in any case. I still feel as though if he is going to be penalized for beating you, you should be penalized for hitting him as well, and yes people I know he is ah man and can clearly over power her but he was behind the wheel of ah vehicle...so how do we know that everything he did to her that night wasn't in self defense? That said how do we know everything that allegedly happen that night actually happen? I only ask because Chris Brown supposedly did all of these things to her while driving, i'd think that it would be extremely difficult  to put someone in ah serious (lose of consciousness) headlock while driving among other things, like pulling her close enough to bite her on her left ear hard enough to break skin or even bruise it - THE POINT IS, wouldn't her head be in the way of him actually driving, like in motion, just saying! Before this starts to seem as though I don't find anything wrong with what happen or like I am pro-beating women...All I am getting at is, they were both wrong in that situation and so was the media for not paying enough attention to that fact, if you were going to punish one I feel you should punish the other too mainly because again THEY WERE BOTH IN THE WRONG!

   Do I feel like they should be together now? Hell no because there poison together apparently neither of them have any sense when there together...actually that's partly true Rihanna seems to always rise to the top of any situation while Chris Brown has just became ah fallen angel his self, WTF! Chris Brown, do you not want to have ah career anymore? Because all of this acting out and yes I said acting out, cause that's what I say when my kids have tantrums and that's what I think you've been having every since you've gotten back with Rihanna. Really it doesn't matter if you have all the money in the world Chris Brown at the end of the day what truly matters is, if when you look up you know you didn't come all this way and accomplish so much to have it be for nothing and to really have Nothing but money! What your doing and have previously done is just, in ah word, stupid! I mean seriously do you not realize that just ah few years ago you were pretty much ah nobody and where was Rihanna then? And Rihanna, girl you just did all of this shit to Chris Brown, getting retraining orders and almost ruining his career saying you were so scared and feared for your life but it doesn't seem as though you were that scared when it was you who broke the arrangements of said order to be with/around the man who beat your ass and scared you oh so bad and wow, when it looks as though he has finally moved on you want him back completely - and you still claim that, that is Chris Browns' fault! saying, "well Chris is in the wrong for pursuing me while he was in a relationship,"Do you not understand that if you kept the retraining order in play he wouldn't have been around you at all! that was your choice not his, that just makes no sense at all to me. The reality is that you Rihanna, in one way or another enjoy the drama that both you and Chris Brown are creating and the question I have for you is, how many times are you going to cry wolf before no one comes to your rescue? At some point enough has just got to be enough.

   Here's what I predict...
Rihanna,"I'm bout to take some of this food Chris"
Chris Brown, "What, I asked you if you wanted some when we were getting the food"
Rihanna, "Don't go crazy it's just ah pinch of it"
Chris Brown,"Why do I have to be crazy because I didn't want to share my food? that's the problem in this relationship"
Rihanna, "No the problem is that you don't act like your in ah relationship with me, are you fucking this food?
Chris Brown, "LoL what?
Rihanna, "What nothing Chris, why can't you answer the question?
Chris Brown,"Cause it's ah stupid question"
Rihanna, "Now I'm stupid?
Chris Brown, "What man no...just get in the car"
Rihanna,"Now i'm ah man? And don't tell me what to do Chris, I will G4L your ass"
Chris Brown, "This shit here man I can't deal wit, I can't believe you going there"
Rihanna, "Cause I don't know why you won't tell me if you fucking your food or not! Your going to make me get my vaseline "

Chris Brown, "Ri fuck your vaseline, I got shit too"
Rihanna, "Well you know how it's gone go down so I hope your ready to go through that again!"
Chris Brown, "I hate that I'm so stuck on stupid for you Ri"
Rihanna, "You hate it, but I love that your so stupid in love for me ha ha"

   The scene will play out just like it did above and Jay-Z will get mad and they'll eventually get back together, but only after she files a retraining order because she fears for her life and Chris Brown will cry and leave ah snot trail from his fingers to his shoulders on the BET awards and it just is what it is and they'll be spotted some where in the world representing their love saying, "Fuck every body at least were together!

DEAD Awake

His hair is dark, like the night sky

I see his spirit within his eyes, it smiles so bright whenever he looks at me

I can't believe his skin is so smooth and brown, with the smell of ah fresh summer breeze

You know that scent at the very beginning of morning, that reminds you that not everyone in the world is so bad

That scent that makes you melt with goosebumps over your entire body

Oh, how I sometimes wish that I could wrap my soul within his and lay under his warm shoulders throughout my days 

Without a single care in the world but then, there are days...

Days where my tears drop like rain when I think of him

Days where the clouds follow me around, like a song being replayed over and over again in my head

There are times when even his words saying, "I love you", cut like knives piercing through my heart right into my soul

You know those days where it feels as though time has stopped and then you blink reminders of every letter in his name 

Though it doesn't spell out what you may think of, only pain and you sit there...

Wondering, if it's the same song playing in his heart as it is in yours 

Those days, where you see him and you go to open your mouth to speak but 

only sounds of mimes come out to entertain you love, as if you were doing it for tips 

Hoping that one day it would just return to that same summer breeze you once felt 

You know, that one that filled your body with goosebumps, huh

Praying to our savor to save you and get you to the finish line and then...

Waking up to realize that you were already there the entire time just passed out from running

Dead Awake!

It Is What It Is!

I can't believe that I actually thought I could trick myself into feeling ah different way about myself...like I could really change or rather ignore the person screaming inside my head forever, I guess I should have known that it, the devilish person inside me, would and always will win in the long run. I guess I decided to bring this up again or should I say finally express my inner feelings today, because the more I sit here and try to convince, not just myself but others as well that I don't HATE me with ah passion the more I realize that I do! The point that others don't realize is that, "some of you, in my case, are to blame...or should I say thank", y'all finally got what y'all obviously wanted outta me all these years, and that's to know that all that trying to make me feel like shit has actually worked...CONGRATULATIONS! I do feel like I am ah five foot four piece of shit, I am nothing!
I really should smack my damn self for thinking that this feeling would go away at some point but hey, I guess the saying is right, "Stand for something or Fall for anything", LAUGH OUT LOUD...I guess I really must have STUPID written all over my face cause like ah dumb ass I feel for all of the bullshit everyone has through at me over the years. It's kinda sad actually when I think about all the time I've wasted believing the lies of most of my so-called "friends"...Yeah the fuck right I'm ah strong person! Yeah the fuck right people look to me for advise! kill ya self if even you believe that shit. If I'm such ah "strong" person why do I feel weak every minute of every day of my life? I guess this time the questions are rhetorical, cause I'm the only one who can really answer them but dumb ass me I can't even do that If I'm the one asking the questions. 
Most of you really don't fully understand that Brittany S. Brooks, has been through ah whole hell of ah lot in this short amount of time that I've been on this earth, and you know what that's fine because I didn't have any plans on informing you of any of it...but at the same time you really don't fully understand that it's all of the extra shit that most of you tack on to me that makes me feel weak and rather old and decrepit, many of you so called "friends"and don't even understand that I had thoughts of taking my own life because let y'all tell it, it's pretty much worthless anyway, I've even tried to kill myself before thinking, maybe everyone I know or that knows me rather, would be better off if I just wasn't around any more and honestly the only thing that stopped me from completely falling through with those plans, that is before I had my children or course, was the fact that almost left and right many of the people I knew were either getting murdered, dying from ah natural death, or they've actually taken their own lives.
To tell you the truth, I'm tired and have been for ah while now. I guess, actually I know that's solely the reason why I would always keep to myself most times, cause you know what, sometimes "YOU" CAN'T LET "YOU" DOWN! It's only those rare occasions when you have actually let yourself down when your alone and that when you find yourself wanting to be around other people again...if that makes any since at all, I know what I meant though so that's all that matter's LAUGH OUT LOUD...I don't y'all I really needed to clear my chest in ah sense cause sometimes talking aloud doesn't work out as well as I would like it too, I guess that's why I found ah way to get all of my feelings out in ah way case in point, this blog! but hey at the end of the day, I'll be alright and that just is what it is!

Just Another Day of Bad News

    Once again I wake to find that, we as ah people, can't make it through an entire day without hearing that something horrible has happen to someone in the world or witnessing on the news, that someone has decided to go completely crazy and in doing so has took out most or all of that "Crazy" on the people that they either; know, have lived by at some point, have serious infatuations with, or randoms...(people that were just in the right place at the wrong time) and for what?

                  

                  Clothes...Shoes...Vehicles...Electronics...Drugs...Money...Power...Control

    

     The fact of the matter is that, while all of these things sound nice, It's all bullshit and none of it can be taken with any of us when the Lord calls us home. So while we're out here committing all these acts of stupidity, not even the devil himself cares about any of it or any of us, because misery loves company! People who are oblivious to that fact are just ignorant pons which even the most intelligent people can be at times. That said, while we, as ah people, fill obligated to fulfill certain goals in our lives that's okay, and well understood by many who have the same requisite about themselves as well. What is not acceptable, is for us to pretend as though our needs should proceed once we've made it to the top, I mean once your there, what then happens? Do you then try to keep reaching/searching  for things you already have, or do you take time to realize that you've finally made it and work that much harder to try and give back to those who are not able to be where you are? I completely understand if many of you readers aren't capable of answering my questions right now plus that's really not the issues I want to focus on in the particular post, what I really wanted to focus on is the crime that's been going on over the years, actually the crime in the past year...

     WHAT IN THE FUCK is going on in the world when people are finding new/weird ways to get high? I mean are people serious with bath salt? Oh girl I can't go out with you but you can come over and we can get high off this bath salt, then for dinner we can go out and eat someones face! Come on, what's next; cascade dishwasher capsules, dawn dish washing liquid, pine-sol, dirty diapers, printer ink? Yeah it sounds real stupid right? I know, now imagine how stupid you appear to everyone when we here or see on the news that, that is what your out here doing with your self, you honestly couldn't find something better to do with your time, if not that is totally sad. Now, I know that I've previously informed all you readers that I have kids, that said, how in the fuck am I suppose to fill comfortable and safe with taking my kids on field trips to the; movies, park, zoo, water park, grocery store, walks, ect. I'm pretty sure by now you get the point...when I don't even fill safe sending them to school after hearing about that shooting at an elementary school of all places, WHAT THE FUCK! am I now suppose to keep my children under complete solitude and home school them because I can't even walk out my front door an automatically know, that when my children get on that school bus to go to school there going to be just fine where there at. I mean when you have ah child or an abundance of children your brain already begins to go into over load with all types of different worries about what can happen to them just because you know all of the dangers you went through or witnessed throughout your life so to have added stress over things that can be avoided is just down right crazy, It really makes you, after ah while, start to go/ feel crazy. Then to hear that the same type of shooting took place at ah movie theater prior to the shooting at the elementary school smh...both me and my husband make it ah point to take our children to enjoy life and many different things which includes taking them to the movies, I can't believe that this world is so in ruins that we now need security in places we should be able to fill safe and secure in such as; HEAD START, ELEMENTARY SCHOOLS, grocery and corner stores, movie theaters, parks and water parks, the zoo, libraries, shit! at this point every new born, infant, child, pre-teen, teens, and pre-adults, should now come with a body guard, someone other than the parents to jump in front of bullets for them...just saying!

With so many; accidental deaths, suicides, murders, unsuspected deaths, and natural deaths occurring every day, I believe that we as people should, at the very least, try and make an attempt to be more aware of whats going on and maybe figure out what we could do to help avoid them from happening, meaning if I know someone is depressed, maybe I should try talking to them to figure out what I could do to help if anything at all, in most cases just being that person they could come to and know that I'm right there listening will be enough, maybe not but do you not think that we could make ah greater attempt to do better not just for one another but for those who don't have anyone else? It's sad really when you've gotten to the point when you wake up, look around and notice that those; friends, family members, associates, enemies, innocent children, even idols have just disappeared...and what makes it horrible is the fact that once you've opened your eyes and began to pay attention to what has been going on, you have ah moment where the actual realization of, THIS PERSON IS GONE FOREVER, kicks in and you've actually wasted time doing nothing...saying nothing...being something for nothing...what that is called people is, Another Day of Bad News!

And I don't know about you but I'm tired of watching unnecessary things happen... I'm so ready to do something for the protection and safety of my; family, friends, associates, and even my enemies H.A.Y?

By the way, if H.A.Y went over your head...It stands for,"How About You"?

"Hair Baby"

I live for referrals and if you want to check out any hair style that I have done please do so by going to Facebook and looking at my pics...Brittany Shontae Anthony

Monee' Pastel "The Acknowledgment"

Ms. Monee' Pastel,
    Girl you've done so much in life...very independent and in control with everything you do and have done thus far, to just say that I'm happy for you would be so much of an under-statement but I'll say it anyway, "I'm happy for you!" Congratulations to you Monee' Pastel and although we weren't close friends to begin with...I wish you nothing but the very best in all you future endeavors.  
I feel I, at the very least, owe you that much due to me being so overwhelmed with my feelings and in my own way/ mind trying to somewhat hate or down play your success in life by not congratulating you earlier and for that, even though it caused no affect on you, I still want to be women enough to apologize to you as well as take time to acknowledge what you have accomplished on your journey...
Now this blog may be coming as a shock to you but I've grown so much through-out the years that I feel it necessary to speak, I would also like to let you know that I in no way want anything from you nor do I have an ulterior motive behind what I am saying I just really wanted you to know from "ME" that I support you and if I can do anything to help you in anyway I will.
Stay blessed through-out your life Monee' and the whole B.A.E crew and never forget to enjoy the little things in life because they're important too.
Oh yeah and the clothes and fashion shows that I've seen thus far on YouTube are hot as hell and if you haven't done so already girl please pat yourself on the back cause you truly are ah bad bitc- shut yo mouth! lmao

Your associate, friend, whatever...
~Brittany Brooks-Anthony~

The Baby

So...
    Today is the first day of the new year, 2013! and with that said, I'm going to start talking about things that might bother some of you readers, such as; Beyonce' and her "baby", Chris Brown and Rihanna, the shooting that happen at that elementary school and so much more. Now...I would like to start off with Beyonce'. 
People please lets just be perfectly honest here, I myself might not like the fact that Beyonce' is one of those artist who believes she can only sell music by wearing nothing! but I have to give it to her, she can sing or should I say sang! but that's not the topic I want to discuss at the moment, what I really want to talk about is that fact that she wants everyone to believe that she has actually had ah "baby"yeah right...and I say this only because I have had three children which for the "hard to catch on people" that also means three pregnancies so...come up with something different Beyonce' if you want me to believe that you actually carried that baby for nine or however many months. 
I saw the video of her when her stomach folded up as she went to sit down...First off, to all the people who keeps saying, "oh it was just the type of dress she had on that day"BULLSHIT! okay because if you were watching, what I was watching, you would have noticed that her dress was tight fitting and there shouldn't have been any reason for her stomach to have folded as if the dress was loose...I mean come on, in that interview she was supposedly six months pregnant, again yeah right...I have been six months pregnant three times over and this last time after watching her interview, I wanted to prove ah point to my husband, so I put on my tight dress and I sat down in ah chair, as my husband watched, and my stomach didn't fold at any point!
Now, I'm not stupid people I completely understand that everybody is different and so is every pregnancy but please if the truth really was that her dress was loose, why in the hell did she look like ah deer caught in the head lights after her "baby belly" folded? anyone who doesn't believe me go ahead and take another gander at that video, I'll wait...

Did you look or are you going to just continue to take my word for it? if your still reading I'll take that as, you believe that there is some truth to what I am saying. With that said, I'm going to tell you what I think really happen with Beyonce', Jay-Z and that "baby"...

One day Jay-Z said to Beyonce', "B, I'm ready to start having kids, what you think bout that?" 
and she said, "That's fine but who's going to carry it? because I don't think i'm ready to stretch out this body yet!" 
Then he said, "I'm sure we can figure out something, ha ha...between the two of use we can do anything."
Then she said, "Yeah you right babe, I guess I could always find someone to carry the baby and when she's about ready to have the baby, I will have already put out about three or four new songs and video's as well as do the award show and at that point we'll tell every body and I'll just wear one of those fake baby bumps that they have for movies for ah while so no one will start to question if i'm really pregnant or not, ha ha...then I'll take "ah break" to have "the baby" when really I'm taking ah break to finish my new CD."
Then he replied, "That sounds good B, and we can pay the hospital to keep the whole maternity ward of limits in order for us to have complete privacy while the person, of our choosing, has the baby."
Then she replied, "I'm fine with that, I guess.''
Then he ask, "Are you sure your really prepared for this B? Cus we could always wait until your ready to have my baby ya self." 
Then she said, "Yeah baby, lets do it now I can't wait to see what our baby would look like, smile ha ha..."
Then he said, "I hope it's ah girl B."

Where things fucked up with this whole plan was that Beyonce' of course had to tell her family the plan and her loose lips dad, being so excited, let the cat out the bag and then got yelled at by both Beyonce' and Jay-Z for saying anything at all...Then of course they all had to say it was ah "rumor" but in actual reality it was the truth, and that's how we came to see her quick pregnancy, her folded stomach, her three video's and their baby, the beautiful little girl that she "carried" for nine short months and then made ah video for her husband damn near right after. That's what I believed happened, maybe not word for word, play by play, or extremely exact but I honestly just don't believe that Beyonce', her self carried that baby...and just FYI, her not carrying it is not why I'm on it so tough, I'm on it so tough because she felt as though she needed to lie about it, I mean come on now be real about ya shit Beyonce', you didn't want to have ah baby thinking that having one would ruin ya body and so instead of being honest about it you lied, really! In the words of Tamar Braxton, "Get Your Life!" Yes what happens between you and your husband should stay between you and your husband, completely understandable, but if that was the case then yall should have just left it that way instead of bringing the entire world into yall's business or better yet, just be real about what was going on instead of putting on this big show for no reason.